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Broken

 I've been told it's okay to not be okay.  While I believe that to be a true statement I fight daily to make everything in my life look like it's okay.  As this week comes to a close I have been significantly reminded of so many of my failings.  I've failed at many things in my life and with each additional failure I'm reminded of so many character flaws that create a repeated pattern in my life.  My insecurities constantly take over and my unwillingness to say "no" or be confrontational hurts my family, my friendships, and my career. Reflecting upon this week it began as a normal week.  Frustrations over not working out enough at the gym and looking in the mirror to see how my lack of training has taken a negative toll on my body.  My stomach is fat, my face is fat, my arms are flabby.  I'm embarrassed to even walk through the gym in this condition. Feeling insecure in the way I look and blaming my eating habits and telling myself how lazy I am f...